You control me....................

If only you knew... Everytime I see you, im speechless... breathless. Whenever I have the chance to see you, I'd take it in an instant. If you knew how often I thought of you, you'd be blown away. If you knew that I compare everyone else I come across to you, you'd be blushing. But if you knew how badly you hurt my heart and how whenever I see you I just want to break down and cry... you would feel so guilty that someone so "special" to you has to feel this unbearable pain... even worse, you're the person causing it.

How should i say !!!!!!!!!!!

There are so many things I wish I could tell you, but I can't. I'm not sure if you would ever understand because I don't understand half of it. I want to be with you so bad, but I'm so afraid of getting hurt and because of that, I end up getting hurt more. I can sit here and say that I don't care about you and that I'm not going to let you hurt me, and just by saying that I know that you can and have. It’s not your fault, it never is. Its me.

I love the way....................

i love the way you look at me even when you don't think i'm watching.
i love the way you smile at me even when i've said the most stupidest thing.
i love the way we can fight and hang up the phone knowing the other person wants to call back but both are too stubborn.
i love the way you can light up my face by just walking in a room.
i love the way you look at me as you gently kiss my cheek
i love all of this, but what i love most is...you
And i can't imagine living any other way; even if i can't see you every day, your voice echoes in my head, your love remains in my heart.
And if you walk away, i know that it will be the best thing to ever walk out of my life.

I realized...........

You made me cry...
You tore me apart..
You left me in tears..
You've shattered my heart..

It wasn't your fault..
I guess it was me..
for love can't be forced..
Perhaps we weren't meant to be..

It still doesn't help..
now that i know..
Because for some reason..
my heart won't let go..

I've tried more than once..
to get over you..
but you make it so hard..
with cute things you do..

I thought love was joy..
but i've got nothing to gain..
just sorrows..,tears..
and a little more pain..

The day the pain started ..
reality came too..
It was the day i realized ..

I really cant stop loving you now......

B' Day 2007

They asked me if I kissed you.
I told them yes.
They asked if I regretted it.
I told them no.
They asked me if I regretted falling for you.
I told them no.
They asked me how I could have ever liked you.

I replied:

I don't regret any of my feelings or things I did with her, because when I look at her I see something different than what everyone else can see. When I'm with her, I feel a feeling that no one or being anywhere else can give me. When I kissed her, my world around me melted. When she held me in his arms and rested his head on mine, I forgot everything but my world that was holding me. Even though all of you may see something in her that is so horrible, all I see is all the positive, and special moments that she ever shared with me...
The only thing that I regret is listening to everyone else, because if I had listened to my heart, I would still have her by my side. She would still be just a phone call away. But now, she's just a phone call away for someone else...

Ocean Park - Hyderabad !!!!!!!!!!!

These are videos of Ocean park.... Hyderabad
We did have little fun not much....
I miss the moments when she gets thrilled....
She hold my hand tight... I love that feeling....

I fear...............

I fear that someday you might leave me because you realize you can do better

I fear that something is going to stand in our way and we will slowly drift apart

I fear that you won't call me or will get tired of who I am

I fear that you might realize how you've compromised for me

I fear that some one is going to steal you away

I fear that something inside of you is going to get annoyed with all the little things you used to love

I fear that one day something is going to happen and God will take you away from me

But most of all I am afraid that I may do something to make you cry, and if that happens I'll die