You control me....................

If only you knew... Everytime I see you, im speechless... breathless. Whenever I have the chance to see you, I'd take it in an instant. If you knew how often I thought of you, you'd be blown away. If you knew that I compare everyone else I come across to you, you'd be blushing. But if you knew how badly you hurt my heart and how whenever I see you I just want to break down and cry... you would feel so guilty that someone so "special" to you has to feel this unbearable pain... even worse, you're the person causing it.

How should i say !!!!!!!!!!!

There are so many things I wish I could tell you, but I can't. I'm not sure if you would ever understand because I don't understand half of it. I want to be with you so bad, but I'm so afraid of getting hurt and because of that, I end up getting hurt more. I can sit here and say that I don't care about you and that I'm not going to let you hurt me, and just by saying that I know that you can and have. It’s not your fault, it never is. Its me.

I love the way....................

i love the way you look at me even when you don't think i'm watching.
i love the way you smile at me even when i've said the most stupidest thing.
i love the way we can fight and hang up the phone knowing the other person wants to call back but both are too stubborn.
i love the way you can light up my face by just walking in a room.
i love the way you look at me as you gently kiss my cheek
i love all of this, but what i love most is...you
And i can't imagine living any other way; even if i can't see you every day, your voice echoes in my head, your love remains in my heart.
And if you walk away, i know that it will be the best thing to ever walk out of my life.

I realized...........

You made me cry...
You tore me apart..
You left me in tears..
You've shattered my heart..

It wasn't your fault..
I guess it was me..
for love can't be forced..
Perhaps we weren't meant to be..

It still doesn't help..
now that i know..
Because for some reason..
my heart won't let go..

I've tried more than once..
to get over you..
but you make it so hard..
with cute things you do..

I thought love was joy..
but i've got nothing to gain..
just sorrows..,tears..
and a little more pain..

The day the pain started ..
reality came too..
It was the day i realized ..

I really cant stop loving you now......

B' Day 2007

They asked me if I kissed you.
I told them yes.
They asked if I regretted it.
I told them no.
They asked me if I regretted falling for you.
I told them no.
They asked me how I could have ever liked you.

I replied:

I don't regret any of my feelings or things I did with her, because when I look at her I see something different than what everyone else can see. When I'm with her, I feel a feeling that no one or being anywhere else can give me. When I kissed her, my world around me melted. When she held me in his arms and rested his head on mine, I forgot everything but my world that was holding me. Even though all of you may see something in her that is so horrible, all I see is all the positive, and special moments that she ever shared with me...
The only thing that I regret is listening to everyone else, because if I had listened to my heart, I would still have her by my side. She would still be just a phone call away. But now, she's just a phone call away for someone else...

Ocean Park - Hyderabad !!!!!!!!!!!

These are videos of Ocean park.... Hyderabad
We did have little fun not much....
I miss the moments when she gets thrilled....
She hold my hand tight... I love that feeling....

I fear...............

I fear that someday you might leave me because you realize you can do better

I fear that something is going to stand in our way and we will slowly drift apart

I fear that you won't call me or will get tired of who I am

I fear that you might realize how you've compromised for me

I fear that some one is going to steal you away

I fear that something inside of you is going to get annoyed with all the little things you used to love

I fear that one day something is going to happen and God will take you away from me

But most of all I am afraid that I may do something to make you cry, and if that happens I'll die

Even If..........

Even if you were the last one in the race
I would still cheer from the sidelines
Even if you were to somehow lose your way
I would guide you back to my arms

Even if you didn't need me anymore
Even if you didn't walk back through my door
I would still be waiting here for you

Even if you didn't look the way you do
I would still think you were beautiful
And if you don't know by now how I love you
Well, it's a love that's unconditional

And even if you didn't love me anymore
Even if you didn't walk back through my door
I would spend my life waiting for you Even if. . .

Even if you lost faith in yourself
I would still be a believer
And I'd remind you you're like nobody else
And I would stand by you forever

Even if you didn't love me anymore
Even if you didn't walk back through my door I would spend my life in love with you

How It feels ?????

When I first fell in love with you, I couldn't stand being apart with you for a week, then it was a day, and then an hour, and then a minute. Now, I can't stand being away from you for a second. And when we are apart, I miss you terribly. My heart aches to be with you again, my skin longs to feel your touch, and my eyes wish to gaze into yours. I want to fall helplessly into your arms, and have you hold me there, close to you, forever.

Losing yoU..............

When I lost you, both of us lose
Me because you were the one I loved the most
You because I was the one who loved you the most
But from the two of us the one who lost more was you
Cause I'll be able to love others the way I loved you
But no one will love you the way I did............

When I ..........

When I first met you
You reached out to shake my hand
When I got to know you
You reached out to understand my mind
When I liked you, you reached out and touched my heart..
When I loved you, you reached out and touched my soul...
When I thought I had nothing
I had everything when I had you...
If we're meant to be together
Let it be...
If fate wants us to be forever
Let's wait and see...

Is It LOVE ........

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within
your chest??
-it isn`t love, it`s like.

You can`t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
-it isn`t love, it`s lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
- it isn`t love, it`s pride.

Do you want them because you know they`re there??
-it isn`t love, it`s loneliness.

Are you there because it`s what everyone wants??
-it isn`t love, it`s loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??
-it isn`t love, it`s low confidence.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don`t want to hurt
them??
-it isn`t love, it`s pity.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??
-it isn`t love, it`s infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
-it isn`t love, it`s friendship.

Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of??
-it isn`t love, it`s a lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
-it isn`t love, it`s charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they`re sad??
-then it`s l o v e.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they`re strong??
-then it`s l o v e.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts??
-then it`s l o v e.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and
relation pulls you close and holds you there??
-then it`s l o v e.

Do you accept their faults because they`re a part of who they are??
-then it`s l o v e.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret??
-then it`s l o v e.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??

A BROKEN HEART ::::::::::::::::

*A BROKEN HEART is when you actually refuse to get out of bed in the morning because you are afraid of the reality that awaits you.

*A BROKEN HEART is when you think about the individual that broke your heart constantly. You reminisce the "Good Times" almost as if the "Bad Times" never existed.

*A BROKEN HEART is when you are crying yourself to sleep every night & yet crying more & more each morning.

*A BROKEN HEART is the unforgettable smell of his shirt that sits in that empty box; stowed away.

*A BROKEN HEART is the cold shattering feeling you receive when you hear the syllables of his name.

*A BROKEN HEART is glancing at the pictures of the two of you, & then quickly turning your attention to something else to avoid your tears.

*A BROKEN HEART is re-reading his ancient letters & putting away the jewelry that he once bought for you.

*A BROKEN HEART is secretly wanting to run back to him & secretly wanting to just be loved by him again.

*A BROKEN HEART is asking desperately for just one last chance with the only person responsible for your loneliness.

*A BROKEN HEART is pretending to not care what his friends are saying about you.

*A BROKEN HEART is forcing yourself to hang up the phone after you have dialed the first three digits to his number.

*A BROKEN HEART is screaming & begging for a second chance inside.

*A BROKEN HEART is the emptiness & heart-wrenching feeling you encounter when you see him with his new love.

*A BROKEN HEART is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you can't fool your heart into believing that you will in fact "Be Alright."

*A BROKEN HEART is seeing him, & even though it may be the hardest thing that you have ever had to do, you decide to walk away.

*A BROKEN HEART is listening to that one song that makes you break down over & over again.

*A BROKEN HEART sometimes means: not wanting to go on.

You Dont Know !!!!

You don't know
You can't see
What really goes on
Inside of me
My eyes shield
How I feel inside
You don't know
How much I've cried
My mouth restricts
What I'd really say
And make you think
I'm perfectly okay
I know you tried
You mean well
But I have things
I'd never tell
To truly laugh
To really smile
Is something I haven't
Done in a while
You'll never know
How I really feel
I don't know how long
It will take to heal.
Just know that
I still love you
After everything
That I've been through.
You'll never see
Inside my mind
I'm protecting you
From what you'd find.
I protect you because
I love you so.
This is my pain
You'll never know.

Madhu's B'Day

It was Madhu B'Day in 2008.....
She will kill me for uploading this.....

THinking of YOU!!!!!

Somewhere there's someone, who dreams about your smile, and finds in your presence, that life is worth while, so when you are lonely, remember it's true, somebody somewhere is thinking of "you"

Wont let you Go.......

I really think there's a reason that I like her so much.
Like something is telling me not to let her go.
Every time I follow my heart... it leads me to her.
I mean... what other explanation is there.
Why is it that she is all I can think about?
Why is it that no matter how upset I am... I see her and I can't help but smile?
Why is it that when she smiles at me... I get that feeling in my stomach?
And even when she'd broken my heart, and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me...
When she lied to me... and I hated her... why then did I still feel those same feelings?
Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I let her hurt me so much.

Best Moments.............

1. I kissed you in the rain.
2. That one cute kiss I pressed you against the wall. (Cancer Hospital… Chennai)
3. Holding you for a long time, hugging you.
4. When I whispered I love you in your ear for the first time in the Farm next to our college.
5. First moment when we were gazing into each other's eyes in college (Pink saree).
6. When you cried, I kissed your tears away (when you were going to Kolkata from Chennai after M.Sc)
7. When you were wearing my shirt after we made love….
8. The first time I kissed you on your forehead.
9. The first time I was holding your leg in beach… just because I couldn’t hold you….
10. I remember the night we spent together near the station just to be with each other….
11. Talking and laughing all night just hoping time would freeze for a moment…..
12. It only took your smile to make my day….

Best piks in Bhutan

These are some of my best piks in Bhutan....
All of them are natural.....
I couldn't stop clicking....

What is Love ?????

Love is a slow kiss goodnight, It's anticipation.
Love is flirting ourtageously and still remembering that the person at your side is not obligated to do anything, It's respect.
Love is an imperfection in your self not bothering you, it's acceptance.
Love is passing up an opportunity because the time isn't right yet, It's patience.
Love is a back massage that starts above the hairline and ends around the insoles, it's exploration.
Love doesn not have to say, "lets make love," because you know what the other person wants, it understands.
Love is being given an honest chance to say no when you thought you were committed, it's consideration.
Love is both of you remembering protection, it's responsibility.
Love is saying the perfect phrase to make a solemn embrace dissolve into giggles, it's humor.
Love is being told "stop and i'll kill you." It's desire.
Love is reviewing the damge to your living room and realizing personal effects are strewn in a clockwise pattern from the front door the to bedroom, it's abandonment.
Love is seeing what your love really looks like for the first time, it's truth.
Love is knowing what time it is and not caring, it's joy.
Love is the arms around you tightening their embrace, it's ecstacy.
Love is seeing a new side of a person you thought you knew, it's renewal.
Love is telling a person if you have to leave, you will let them sleep, and being told they would rathr be woken, it's tenderness.
Love is waking up to find the subject of the dream you were having asleep on your shoulder, it's where fantasy meets reality.
Love is being there to wake your lover slowly, it's sensuousness.
Love belatedly knows why you bothered to buy a queen-sized bed three years ago, it's practicality.
Love is two people only taking up a third of a queen-sized bed, it's closeness.
Love knows you gave the extra set of keys to your apartment to the right person, its trust.
Love is saying good-bye and knowing you will be back by mutual consent, its faith.
Love is stretching your arms and discovering the real meaning of the word "sore" it's a lesson in human frailty.
Love is opening your medicine cabinet finding your tube of toothpaste turned into a prezel, it's adaptation.
Love is sitting at the window, looking out and remembering who you were with the night before, it's reflection.
Love is hearing the weather forecast for a winter storm and wishing you could spend it in bed with your lover, it's loneliness.
Love is stories that will never be told, it's personal.

Like I Know...........

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you

Look at her !!!

She’s floating like a butterfly, so charming
She recognise the man in me
There’s something in her eyes like a spell getting me hypnotized
Oh Lord, she gives me one smiles, two smiles, three smiles
She got me going wild
So baby, don’t change your style oh no no love
Tease me tease me tease me tease me baby ’til I lose control
Tease me with your lovin’ ’til I lose control
Take all my body and soul

I Cried

I cried and I cried
There were nights that died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried aint that long
Then Im wrong, yeah Im wrong, this aint a love song

First Lunch at Yo China!! in Hyderabad... 15th March 2007

Today is the day i had lunch with madhu for the 1st time in hyderabad.....
I was so happy to have back.... A new journey had begun...
I couldn ask for more than what i was having in my hands...
I love you so much jaan......

Love hurts...........

Love hurts, love scars
Love wounds and marks
Any heart not tough
Or strong enough
Take a lot of pain
Take a lot of pain
Love is like a cloud
And it holds a lot of rain
Love hurts

Sitting on the top of the world

Never seen a sky so blue
I’ve never been happy with anyone
Like I am when I’m with you
Look at the sun shining up in the sky
I feel a little closer to heaven, baby
When I’m looking into your eyes

And as long as we’re together, boy
I’m sitting on top of the world
Wanna feel this way forever, boy
I’m sitting on top of the world

Last night I lay in the dark
Tryin’ to figure it out
Tryin’ to talk to my heart
But now it’s morning and I still don’t know why
All I know is that you got me feeling so good
All I know is that it feels the way that true love should
Ain’t no one luckier than you and I

And everybody’s got an opinion ’bout how this should be
But they don’t understand it
No, no they just can’t see
That I belong with you and baby, baby,
Baby, you belong with me

What it means

When I say I'm beautiful you say "yeah right,"
but what im really saying is "do you really think so?"
When I say good job you say "thanks"
but what Im really saying is "I love that you notice."
When I say we'll be together forever you say "I hope so"
but what im really saying is "I hope forever never ends."
When I say I love you you say "I love you too"
but what Im really saying is "never stop saying that."
When I say that I dont care you say "yes I do"
but what Im really saying is
"I care for you more than you'll ever know."

Dedicated to every girl in the world

Treat her like shes more than you want.. more than you could ever dream.. and more than she thinks she is... like shes everything you've ever wanted.. make sure you speak to her sweeter and love her deeper be true and be kind she's more than just a girl... she's and angel without wings, she's the sweetest thing in the world, and is more precious than a thousand roses.. girls Never frown because you never know When someone is falling In love with your smile, let her know you care let her know by doing something special for her call her everynight just to make sure everthings alright and to remind her you still care..always wish her the sweetest dreams... when she cries let your shoulder be the first she rests her head upon, and cry with her, letting her know shes not alone, when she laughs let you be the first to hear her, when shes down help her laugh but most of all guys...when you tell her you love her let her see the tears in your eyes..................

112 ways to say... I LOVE YOU

English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Frisian - Ik hâld fan dy
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha Au Ia`oe (Thanks Craig)
Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female)
Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (to male)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Surinam - Mi lobi joe
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu di
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe

Love.........

Love is when you can't be apart from someone for too long...you're always thinking of them, and when you're with them you never want to say goodbye. Love is far from simple. It's quite complex. It's a mix of about everything. It's sadness, joy, passion, hatred, excitement, it's almost every feeling you can imagine and more. You know love when you find it, it's that person that when they smile it brightens up your day, you can't stop staring at them for fear of losing them, they're always on your mind, you daydream of being with them, even if they're less than 20 feet away...and you can't stand it when they're not with you, the worst feeling you could ever feel is when you know that person you love is not with you...you can't tell when love will happen, you just know when it does, that moment when you first lay eyes on that person, and you never want to look away...that is love. Nothing less