You control me....................

If only you knew... Everytime I see you, im speechless... breathless. Whenever I have the chance to see you, I'd take it in an instant. If you knew how often I thought of you, you'd be blown away. If you knew that I compare everyone else I come across to you, you'd be blushing. But if you knew how badly you hurt my heart and how whenever I see you I just want to break down and cry... you would feel so guilty that someone so "special" to you has to feel this unbearable pain... even worse, you're the person causing it.

How should i say !!!!!!!!!!!

There are so many things I wish I could tell you, but I can't. I'm not sure if you would ever understand because I don't understand half of it. I want to be with you so bad, but I'm so afraid of getting hurt and because of that, I end up getting hurt more. I can sit here and say that I don't care about you and that I'm not going to let you hurt me, and just by saying that I know that you can and have. It’s not your fault, it never is. Its me.

I love the way....................

i love the way you look at me even when you don't think i'm watching.
i love the way you smile at me even when i've said the most stupidest thing.
i love the way we can fight and hang up the phone knowing the other person wants to call back but both are too stubborn.
i love the way you can light up my face by just walking in a room.
i love the way you look at me as you gently kiss my cheek
i love all of this, but what i love most is...you
And i can't imagine living any other way; even if i can't see you every day, your voice echoes in my head, your love remains in my heart.
And if you walk away, i know that it will be the best thing to ever walk out of my life.

I realized...........

You made me cry...
You tore me apart..
You left me in tears..
You've shattered my heart..

It wasn't your fault..
I guess it was me..
for love can't be forced..
Perhaps we weren't meant to be..

It still doesn't help..
now that i know..
Because for some reason..
my heart won't let go..

I've tried more than once..
to get over you..
but you make it so hard..
with cute things you do..

I thought love was joy..
but i've got nothing to gain..
just sorrows..,tears..
and a little more pain..

The day the pain started ..
reality came too..
It was the day i realized ..

I really cant stop loving you now......

B' Day 2007

They asked me if I kissed you.
I told them yes.
They asked if I regretted it.
I told them no.
They asked me if I regretted falling for you.
I told them no.
They asked me how I could have ever liked you.

I replied:

I don't regret any of my feelings or things I did with her, because when I look at her I see something different than what everyone else can see. When I'm with her, I feel a feeling that no one or being anywhere else can give me. When I kissed her, my world around me melted. When she held me in his arms and rested his head on mine, I forgot everything but my world that was holding me. Even though all of you may see something in her that is so horrible, all I see is all the positive, and special moments that she ever shared with me...
The only thing that I regret is listening to everyone else, because if I had listened to my heart, I would still have her by my side. She would still be just a phone call away. But now, she's just a phone call away for someone else...

Ocean Park - Hyderabad !!!!!!!!!!!

These are videos of Ocean park.... Hyderabad
We did have little fun not much....
I miss the moments when she gets thrilled....
She hold my hand tight... I love that feeling....

I fear...............

I fear that someday you might leave me because you realize you can do better

I fear that something is going to stand in our way and we will slowly drift apart

I fear that you won't call me or will get tired of who I am

I fear that you might realize how you've compromised for me

I fear that some one is going to steal you away

I fear that something inside of you is going to get annoyed with all the little things you used to love

I fear that one day something is going to happen and God will take you away from me

But most of all I am afraid that I may do something to make you cry, and if that happens I'll die

Even If..........

Even if you were the last one in the race
I would still cheer from the sidelines
Even if you were to somehow lose your way
I would guide you back to my arms

Even if you didn't need me anymore
Even if you didn't walk back through my door
I would still be waiting here for you

Even if you didn't look the way you do
I would still think you were beautiful
And if you don't know by now how I love you
Well, it's a love that's unconditional

And even if you didn't love me anymore
Even if you didn't walk back through my door
I would spend my life waiting for you Even if. . .

Even if you lost faith in yourself
I would still be a believer
And I'd remind you you're like nobody else
And I would stand by you forever

Even if you didn't love me anymore
Even if you didn't walk back through my door I would spend my life in love with you

How It feels ?????

When I first fell in love with you, I couldn't stand being apart with you for a week, then it was a day, and then an hour, and then a minute. Now, I can't stand being away from you for a second. And when we are apart, I miss you terribly. My heart aches to be with you again, my skin longs to feel your touch, and my eyes wish to gaze into yours. I want to fall helplessly into your arms, and have you hold me there, close to you, forever.

Losing yoU..............

When I lost you, both of us lose
Me because you were the one I loved the most
You because I was the one who loved you the most
But from the two of us the one who lost more was you
Cause I'll be able to love others the way I loved you
But no one will love you the way I did............

When I ..........

When I first met you
You reached out to shake my hand
When I got to know you
You reached out to understand my mind
When I liked you, you reached out and touched my heart..
When I loved you, you reached out and touched my soul...
When I thought I had nothing
I had everything when I had you...
If we're meant to be together
Let it be...
If fate wants us to be forever
Let's wait and see...

Is It LOVE ........

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within
your chest??
-it isn`t love, it`s like.

You can`t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
-it isn`t love, it`s lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
- it isn`t love, it`s pride.

Do you want them because you know they`re there??
-it isn`t love, it`s loneliness.

Are you there because it`s what everyone wants??
-it isn`t love, it`s loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??
-it isn`t love, it`s low confidence.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don`t want to hurt
them??
-it isn`t love, it`s pity.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??
-it isn`t love, it`s infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
-it isn`t love, it`s friendship.

Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of??
-it isn`t love, it`s a lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
-it isn`t love, it`s charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they`re sad??
-then it`s l o v e.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they`re strong??
-then it`s l o v e.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts??
-then it`s l o v e.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and
relation pulls you close and holds you there??
-then it`s l o v e.

Do you accept their faults because they`re a part of who they are??
-then it`s l o v e.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret??
-then it`s l o v e.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??

A BROKEN HEART ::::::::::::::::

*A BROKEN HEART is when you actually refuse to get out of bed in the morning because you are afraid of the reality that awaits you.

*A BROKEN HEART is when you think about the individual that broke your heart constantly. You reminisce the "Good Times" almost as if the "Bad Times" never existed.

*A BROKEN HEART is when you are crying yourself to sleep every night & yet crying more & more each morning.

*A BROKEN HEART is the unforgettable smell of his shirt that sits in that empty box; stowed away.

*A BROKEN HEART is the cold shattering feeling you receive when you hear the syllables of his name.

*A BROKEN HEART is glancing at the pictures of the two of you, & then quickly turning your attention to something else to avoid your tears.

*A BROKEN HEART is re-reading his ancient letters & putting away the jewelry that he once bought for you.

*A BROKEN HEART is secretly wanting to run back to him & secretly wanting to just be loved by him again.

*A BROKEN HEART is asking desperately for just one last chance with the only person responsible for your loneliness.

*A BROKEN HEART is pretending to not care what his friends are saying about you.

*A BROKEN HEART is forcing yourself to hang up the phone after you have dialed the first three digits to his number.

*A BROKEN HEART is screaming & begging for a second chance inside.

*A BROKEN HEART is the emptiness & heart-wrenching feeling you encounter when you see him with his new love.

*A BROKEN HEART is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you can't fool your heart into believing that you will in fact "Be Alright."

*A BROKEN HEART is seeing him, & even though it may be the hardest thing that you have ever had to do, you decide to walk away.

*A BROKEN HEART is listening to that one song that makes you break down over & over again.

*A BROKEN HEART sometimes means: not wanting to go on.

You Dont Know !!!!

You don't know
You can't see
What really goes on
Inside of me
My eyes shield
How I feel inside
You don't know
How much I've cried
My mouth restricts
What I'd really say
And make you think
I'm perfectly okay
I know you tried
You mean well
But I have things
I'd never tell
To truly laugh
To really smile
Is something I haven't
Done in a while
You'll never know
How I really feel
I don't know how long
It will take to heal.
Just know that
I still love you
After everything
That I've been through.
You'll never see
Inside my mind
I'm protecting you
From what you'd find.
I protect you because
I love you so.
This is my pain
You'll never know.